| Le sigh |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|11:04 pm] |
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Haven't been on this in such a long time, went back and re-read entries dating back to 2004. I gave myself mad props for being young and ridiculously stupid for a lot of the previous 5 years.
Note to self kids:
Do not have a early life crisis at 20
Do not take a year and a half off from college
Do not change majors after taking a year and a half off from college
Do not fall in love with irremediable men
Still mending, still stumbling, still learning.
Much love,
Andrea |
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| Back Surgery Update |
[May. 4th, 2008|04:12 pm] |
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So after another MRI and a bunch of testing I found out I have another ruptured disk.So now I have two fucked up disks and scoliosis, I am officially on the wheelchair bound train. Woo, thankfully its not degenerated enough where I am going to need a surgery in the near future. So that means that my summer is safe from me being a cripple. Eventually I am going to need a spinal fusion, which is gonna blow. For now i have to wear a super sexy back brace every once in a while, go to physical therapy, and take lots of meds. |
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| This week |
[Feb. 15th, 2008|02:31 pm] |
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has been pretty glorious, and its only friday...lets see what the weekend brings on |
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| 2008 |
[Jan. 4th, 2008|01:25 am] |
So I have the habit of re-reading books that I like. I mean I have read A Hundred Years of Solitude probably 50 times, and every time I find something new to decipher, or pick at. This past week I picked up a book I haven't read in over a year by Isabel Allende called Of Love and Shadows. I found this quote, and it seemed fitting for my views regarding the new year...
"Solo tendréis el presente. No perdáis energía llorando por el pasado o soñando por el mañana. La nostalgia desgasta y aniquila." -Isabel Allende-
For you with Spanish deficiencies, here it is in English...Still good, but it seems a hell of a lot more powerful in Spanish to me for some reason.
"You only have the present. Do not waste energy crying for the past, or dreaming for tomorrow. Nostalgia wears away and annihilates." |
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| I can't accept that it's over... |
[Dec. 8th, 2007|01:39 am] |
After a bottle of wine, and listening to the postal service for the past hour. i am nothing short of depressed.
i hate winter. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2007|02:49 am] |
get a life and stop trying to be deep, everyone can see past through it
jesus |
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| its time for confessions |
[Oct. 21st, 2007|09:29 pm] |
I was always told that when talking about two
you should always start with yourself:
i can't make coffee.
i don't like seafood.
i am stubborn.
i refused to let you in.
i don't understand football.
i suck at all games.
i never go to bed before 11.
i cry at least once a month, especially when its cold.
i hate the texture of lettuce.
i have OCD tendencies.
i am difficult.
i am sarcastic.
i can be mean.
with me nothing is easy
but this you know
you know me well...
you must know how things are
its gone from bad to worse
but at least i'm still breathing
to be honest,
no one thinks about you the way i do
even if its all the same to you
you don't have to say it
you are not coming back
but no matter how hard i try to put you behind me
forgetting you is
well,
impossible.
I've always known it's best when talking about two
you should always start with yourself. |
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| 2007 |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|08:52 pm] |
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I have a good feeling about 07. Seven is a good number. I welcomed the new years with some of my favoritest people ever. There is nothing better than walking into a place and being attacked by a bunch of boys I adore, the proceed to get drunk and make even more memories. Who would have thought that some of us would still be friends so many years down the road... I will always cherish those friendships. I have made some pretty big desicions lately. I will not be renewing my contract at the school next year, which honestly I'm kinda upset about. But I really need to finish my degree. I'm going to load up with classes so I can get my associates degree through wake tech. Then the plan is to transfer to UNCG to get my licensure so I can actually teach kindergarten. I was on the fence because I didn't think i would like being back to UNCG. But these two weekends made me realize that greensboro, with all its crazyness, is home. I like Raleigh and stuff but it feels like this is the place where my parents live. In Greensboro I made a life away from that. Besides I will kill someone at Meredith, or kill myself at ECU. So hopefully I should be moving back next spring or summer if all goes according to plan. I got to hang out with Tye and Morgan who make my world go round. We have gone months without hanging out and it feels like nothings changed. There is something brewing, more on it later... |
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| GIVE ME MUSIC |
[Oct. 7th, 2006|03:39 pm] |
It turns out i have a rupured disk and im going to need surgery to fix it. That leaves me with a hospital stay and no work/play for like a month. I just got a replacement ipod and since my laptop crashed my itunes library died with it. I NEED MUSIC IN THIS IPOD BY MONDAY. I'm having this surgery as soon as they can squeeze me in, it may even be on monday. So please please please let me steal your music, i'll will forever love you...
yours truly,
andrea 'the cripple' alvarez |
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| p.a.i.n. |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|06:41 pm] |
back surgery
coming up soon
damn it
and my brand new damn ipod isnt working
today has just blown |
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| so |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|08:13 pm] |
sometimes you get support from the least expected source...and slapped in the face from the one person you were counting on the most...
c'est la vie
my back is much better, it still hurts...but at least it doesnt feel like all my back and leg muscles are being torn apart from taking a step or sitting down...i collapsed on the stairs to my house monday night, ive never felt pain like that in my life, my parents rushed me to the ER where i got a shot of cortizone (which hurt like hell by the way) and a shot of steroids...the doctor doesnt really know whats wrong, he's pretty sure its not nerve damage (thank god) but i was refered to an orthopedic doctor, i have an appointment set for next week. They gave me some sort of narcotic related to oxycoten and some muscle relaxers and more steroids, the pain has gone from like a 9.5 to like a 5 in the scale from 1-10. Which is pretty damn good since it has been between a nine and a ten for the past week. oh by the way my chiropractor was full of shit, and if i ever see him again i will kill him for making me hurt worse. so hopefully i wont need back surgery and all my pain will eventually go away...i get to go back to my kids tomorrow, with restrictions (no sitting on the floor, or picking any little ones up, or running) but at least i'll be there and not feeling like a bum...oh oh and grey's anatomy starts back up again tomorrow, annie and i watched 5 hours of season 2 today, we are somewhat obsessed...i heart my best friend... |
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| stolen |
[Sep. 10th, 2006|11:39 pm] |
i took this from one of julie's blogs on myspace (lame, i know), i wish things hadnt gone down the way they did cause i really like that girl...too bad we cant be friends, but anyways, i like this little excerpt i dont know if she wrote it or if she got it from somewhere but...yeah read it
Why cant we rewind,
But keep what we know?
When to stop.
When to go.
Start fresh with the feeling in our hearts new
not tainted
not jaded
not blue.
Or even just to try again, clean the slate and know nothing.
Just give me another chance to make it right
fight a new fight
Im getting too close to the light.
I sit and I listen and try to gain knowledge.
But all I do is think.
Not about Yahweh
or Brecht
or cell tissue.
But the past and
the things its too late to change.
But if I could rewind,
Preserve my mind.
I would not be so eager to fall
Not so hateful to the ones that know me best.
Ignore the norm
Forget all of their names
Forget everyones name
Commit when I begin
Stop loosing myself in the cloud that overcomes me when I want to forget.
Stop being full of shit. |
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| update |
[Aug. 25th, 2006|10:17 pm] |
this week has been absolutely nuts...my grown up life kinda got started, its weird as hell
monday: started school meetings out the ass
tuesday: school from 8 till 3, class from 3:45-5, work at uno's from 6-10
then went out to celebrate my 21st birthday with everyone.my parents came and played
beer pong, my dad schooled my ass. i got pretty drunk and had a blast, i love my
friends and family.
wednesday: woke up and went to school kinda drunk. threw up a couple of times. got a TB test.
threw up some more. ate some mashed potatoes. threw those up.(getting the picture?)
went to class from 6 till 10 and then passed the fuck out.
thursday: went to school ready to move in our classroom since it was still under construction.
but oh no we didnt pass inspection so it got pushed back a day. filled a zillion
forms out. went to class. annie came over and gave me my wonderful birthday
presents. went to see beerfest with the crew. thanks to thor and sorry to nick for
annoying him.
friday: was in school at 7:30 ready to move in some of the stuff before the kids and parents
came in at 11 for "meet the teacher" but oh what a surprise we didnt pass inspection
and we were told we couldnt move in till monday...KIDS COME IN MONDAY! we cant cancel
school since the funding we get for next year is dependant on attendance numbers for
the next 20 days. so we had to inform parents that they needed to pick up their
children at like noon so it still counts. so my first official day as senorita
alvarez was spent doing massive massive damage control. BUT i met most of my kids and they are the cutest ever. there is one little
boy his name is river, and he was wearing a beatles shirt and his mom has like 5
tattoos that i could see and i think they are going to be one of my favorites. its
crazy cause there is another little boy Eli who is OBSSESED with the beatles, he wants
us to call him "the beatles" its amazing to me that little 3 and 4 year olds are being
exposed to good music at such an early age.
i know no one read my boring teaching stuff cause im the only one that cares, and only i get excited about laminating little name tags in the shapes of hands...tomorrow i have to be at school in the morning for montessori training, and then im gonna get more of the classroom done. and then drunk cause next week is going to be hell with 30 kids and no classroom. who wants to get drunk with me? |
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[Aug. 17th, 2006|01:41 am] |
-i started classes today. so far so good.
-i miss kevin and chris and smallz damn greensboro for taking them back
-i just found out that i do not have to start teaching next week, i have to go in monday to a staff meeting, and friday to an open house. I assumed that since my contract stated that i would begin work on the 21st that it was when school started for students as well, well i assumed wrong. so this means that i can get totally belligerent on my birthday (WEDNESDAY the 23rd), which is awesome cause i was kinda bummed since i thought i couldnt do anything special! so woot about that
-i'm planning on coming to greensboro on that weekend to do an andrea/john 21st birthdays thing, it shall be good times, hopefully i'll get to see some people who i didnt get a chance to hang out with last time i was in town
thats it for now,
love and kisses |
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[Jul. 9th, 2006|11:17 pm] |
im bored so i decided to update this thing, which is kinda pointless cause the people i care about are already updated on my life but eh, whatever
-i went to the beach with my family for a week, it was pretty straight, i did absolutely nothing the entire time i was there except read choke, shanghai baby, and some other spanish book, hang out at the beach and drool over the hot italians that were down the beach from us.
-got back and went straight to annie's and hung out with some cool peeps
-got up came home and napped then went to kevin's pool with annie, ryan, smallz, chrissmith, and john...we had good times thanks for having us over kevin's mommy
-and THEN annie and i met the boys at the disc golf park, felt like we were intruding on "boy time" so we left and fullfiled our vagina roles and made them all dinner, (after being harrassed by the crackheads in foodlion) then we all laid around drank and watched the family stone (well,annie and i watched it, the guys bitched about sarah jessica parker and how much they hate her)
-AND then annie and i showered together, and then we went to joe's, we hung out for a hot minute and then came back and slept and then my dog woke everyone up and then i walked him and then i said fuck it and went back to sleep
PS's:
-thor is the sickest beer chugger you will ever meet
-lauren im sorry my dog pooped in your room and that you had to crawl all over hung over bodies to get to work this morning
-im bored |
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| update |
[Jun. 14th, 2006|04:40 pm] |
-i signed the contract with the montessori school for next fall, i start august 21st, man here comes growing up i guess
-my grandparents left for colombia today, its weird cause im not really sure if im going to get to see them again, especially my grandpa, this is the first time in my life when i have noticed that he's aged...he always has looked the same, and now he looks like an old man...
-i have a love/hate relationship with uno, im there all the time, i think thats where the hate comes from, but i love almost everyone i work with, i've made really good frienships there...
-kevin turned 21 on sunday, annie and i drove up and surprised him...i got to see a ton of people that i dont see anymore, it was good times
-canes are kicking the oiler's ass one more game and we get the cup, and im also trying to catch as many of the world cup games as possible...good thing colombia didnt qualify, we would have gotten schooled, our team sucks now, blah
-jeff and i are not seeing each other anymore. things just were not working out, the age difference played a huge role in that, and there were some issues there that neither of us wanted to invest time working on, so single again, woot
-thats all, i lead a boring life |
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[May. 8th, 2006|06:59 pm] |
summer is here...
my last summer without any real responsabilities. when you are little you are in such a hurry to be old and grown up, but damn when being grown up sneaks up on you, its kinda scary...
in june after the school lets out im gonna have a lot of time to hang out, so lets get that done.
annie got a job at uno, im happy cause i live there and now i get to see her more.
things with the man have been kinda rocky lately, the age difference has come into play but we're working things out. He's at the beach till thursday, it was weird not seeing him today. This is the longest we'll go without seeing each other since we've been "whatever" so we'll see how true the whole distance making the heart grow fonder bullshit is.
im bored, im actually watching a new york minute, i hate mary kate and ashley
agh |
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| oh man |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|11:54 pm] |
too funny not to put up
| Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage | 
You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to! |
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